Been way to Long since I have posted

Oy so much has happened. I started working at Glen Eyrie. Glen Eyrie is a Castle here in Colorado Springs. I worked there in my early 20s and regret leaving every minute I was away. I was there for a few weeks and was nudged to apply for a full time position in another department. I had an interview and then a second interview and it went great. I got the job! This place is my home away from home. I would never leave there if I could. I would stay there if they let me. The property is 800+acres of pure amazingness. God's hands protected the property from the Waldo Canyon Fire.

On a happy note on my weight loss.. Here is a current picture of the progress.  I can see the difference in my face but also pants that I haven't been able to wear since right after I got married, I CAN FIT INTO. I am not sure that any one is reading my blog, but I am so happy. I am starting to love me again.

SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED.

I got a job. Its a part time very temporary job, but its in the best place in the world. I worked at this place in my early 20s before starting at Carnival Cruise Lines. Here is a pic of where I get to work every day

That is the parking lot where I work. Its the most amazing creation from God, and I am blessed to work there. It is a castle. WHO gets to say "hey i work in a castle" THIS GIRL! I work with the most amazing team of people! you can even stay in the castle www.gleneyrie.org check it out!

I am almost done with school. I need to get back on track with my weight loss. I am going to start on swimming! I swam in middle school and was amazing at it. I competed internationally and did great. I was awesome at the butterfly and the back stroke! I cant wait to get back into it again! And finally start to lose this weight! By christmas I will be a size 16 or 14!!

In Arizona

My husband had training for work in Scottsdale Arizona and I tagged along with him. I have had the time of my life. I got my toes and nails done and been walking around in 112 degrees weather. I have actually been loving this weather. It reminds me of when I lived over seas. And loved it. I think I would love to live here. My husband says no. But i love it here. The weather is just amazing. We have been swimming each night and just enjoying myself. On a happier note, my previous employer is not fighting my unemployment! That is a good thing. Ok good night cyber world.

And Unemployed....

So a lot has happened in the past few days. On Friday, after almost four years with my job, I was let go.  I gave that company blood and tears and countless trips to the doctor for anti anxiety medication...they let me go. I cried for about 12 hours, and slept the best I have slept in four years. So I am starting to look for a new job. My entire adult life I have always had a job, or going into a new job. Its scary. What if I don't have what it takes to be in a new job again. One that isn't working from home. I have worked from home for over a year...this has contributed to me putting on weight. Since I have not being sitting at a computer for 10 hours a day I have actually lost 5 pounds. Its insane. Total I have lost 28 pounds since I started this weight loss journey. I am going to buckle down and get into my goal pants. I have them! They are so pretty. Size 14, I know not tiny, but They are so pretty. I have them in my room I see them every morning and night and even say "hi" to them. Sad I know....

Today I went and spoke with my previous boss at the conference center. They are looking for a temporary employee. I would do anything to work there again. I left after my husband and I got married cause we needed more money. Now, I can't even think about putting a price on the happiness working there brought me. When I got home, I started praying about what I would say if they offered me the job. I will say yes. Its in the field of what I want to do after graduation and something that I can do well. So tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it, mine or any one else's. Good night cyber world.

Unemployed and Frustrated

As of Friday I no longer have a job. While I am happy not to be working for that company anymore, I am scared about starting new job. I can finally have a life now and see people and friends but every time I talk about doing something, my husband makes a snide remark about not having a job. Its been 2 days. I have applied for 7 jobs since I  got fired. Its not like I am just sitting at home doing nothing. I am applying all over the place to get a job. No one is responding to me about employment. I am praying that I find something soon, cause he will only get more upset if I don't. I love my husband more than life its self. I want us to be financially stable and happy, but I don't know if i can give him that. Ugh I need a drink.

At home Sick

Today, I am sick. I haven't been sick in....oh about 3 years. I try not to get sick and when I do its bad. I am still working today as I have no more sick time and no PTO time. I have no voice either. So working on the phones with no voice is kinda awkward. I have lost my umph for weight loss and need to get it back. I don't know how i am going to get it back, but I am going to find a way. I am going to start a pin up board....that sounds wrong but its not dirty. I am going to start pinning up things that I want to wear and do when I lose 80lbs. So i put up some before pictures and here is one recently.

It's Been A While

Wow, so much has happened this past month. We had a huge forest fire about 7 miles from our house. The Waldo Canyon Forest Fire. It burned down over 350 homes and killed three people. Not only the fire, but my step-dad was admitted to the hospital last week. He has since been released but it was scary there for a while.

I have been slacking on the exercise lately cause of all the things going on. The fire is still not fully contained. They think it will be by tonight. My husband and I stayed up watching the flames a few nights, it was so sad.