And Unemployed....

So a lot has happened in the past few days. On Friday, after almost four years with my job, I was let go.  I gave that company blood and tears and countless trips to the doctor for anti anxiety medication...they let me go. I cried for about 12 hours, and slept the best I have slept in four years. So I am starting to look for a new job. My entire adult life I have always had a job, or going into a new job. Its scary. What if I don't have what it takes to be in a new job again. One that isn't working from home. I have worked from home for over a year...this has contributed to me putting on weight. Since I have not being sitting at a computer for 10 hours a day I have actually lost 5 pounds. Its insane. Total I have lost 28 pounds since I started this weight loss journey. I am going to buckle down and get into my goal pants. I have them! They are so pretty. Size 14, I know not tiny, but They are so pretty. I have them in my room I see them every morning and night and even say "hi" to them. Sad I know....

Today I went and spoke with my previous boss at the conference center. They are looking for a temporary employee. I would do anything to work there again. I left after my husband and I got married cause we needed more money. Now, I can't even think about putting a price on the happiness working there brought me. When I got home, I started praying about what I would say if they offered me the job. I will say yes. Its in the field of what I want to do after graduation and something that I can do well. So tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it, mine or any one else's. Good night cyber world.

Unemployed and Frustrated

As of Friday I no longer have a job. While I am happy not to be working for that company anymore, I am scared about starting new job. I can finally have a life now and see people and friends but every time I talk about doing something, my husband makes a snide remark about not having a job. Its been 2 days. I have applied for 7 jobs since I  got fired. Its not like I am just sitting at home doing nothing. I am applying all over the place to get a job. No one is responding to me about employment. I am praying that I find something soon, cause he will only get more upset if I don't. I love my husband more than life its self. I want us to be financially stable and happy, but I don't know if i can give him that. Ugh I need a drink.

At home Sick

Today, I am sick. I haven't been sick in....oh about 3 years. I try not to get sick and when I do its bad. I am still working today as I have no more sick time and no PTO time. I have no voice either. So working on the phones with no voice is kinda awkward. I have lost my umph for weight loss and need to get it back. I don't know how i am going to get it back, but I am going to find a way. I am going to start a pin up board....that sounds wrong but its not dirty. I am going to start pinning up things that I want to wear and do when I lose 80lbs. So i put up some before pictures and here is one recently.

It's Been A While

Wow, so much has happened this past month. We had a huge forest fire about 7 miles from our house. The Waldo Canyon Forest Fire. It burned down over 350 homes and killed three people. Not only the fire, but my step-dad was admitted to the hospital last week. He has since been released but it was scary there for a while.

I have been slacking on the exercise lately cause of all the things going on. The fire is still not fully contained. They think it will be by tonight. My husband and I stayed up watching the flames a few nights, it was so sad.