Tuesday

So today is my day off from work. I wanted to get some homework done, so I sat down at the table with my laptop and my notebook for that class, and I just can't get into it. I am uncomfortable all over! This makes me start to have a panic attack. I hate myself right now. I hate the way I look, and feel. I hate the way I dress. I hate the way my hair is. I hate everything right now. My house is clean! Thats the only thing that I like right now. My amazing friend Barb came over last week and scrubbed my house while I was working. She is a God send. With out her I would be buried in a dirty house. I need a vacation from my life...Can you take those? Oy I am going for a walk to clear my mind. I will write more later...Not sure who is reading this, but if you are reading this..say a prayer for me please.